Stay the Course

When we're facing difficult times - whether we are working to overcome adversity or to accomplish a cherished dream - it's important to see past today's pain and to keep the longview of hope. While things might not look great to us right now, we are on a path. As long as we act with faith and integrity, we can expect to one day find ourselves standing on the cusp of a brighter day.

A few years ago, my husband wrote this song and I recorded it. If you or someone you know is facing challenges, share this with them. Sometimes all you need is to know that you are on the right track and that there is always hope.

Listen to Stay the Course.


Stay the Course

I had a dream I was a starship driver
I met the man in the moon
He said to me, "I know you're cold and tired,
But there's still so much to do.
And I know sometimes, it seems you're out there on your own
But there's much more going on than you can see
You may believe in happenstance
But nothing happens just by chance
The right time and place is where you'll always be.

Just Stay the Course, you're on the right track
Trust in your heart, no, don't look back
Watch for the signs along the way
The road ahead leads to a brighter day."

I met a man on the way to somewhere
He had that look in his eye
I don't know how but I could tell he'd been there
Around the block once or twice
And he said, "You may not know me
From the man in the moon,
But I've a feeling you've got something on your mind.
You might think that it's absurd, but I'm giving you my word
What you're looking for won't be so hard to find."

Now I don't know what makes the world go 'round
The sky blue, the grass so green
And I don't understand serendipity
But I do believe that dreams come true
So if you're open to the clues
There's no end to the possibilities

Why I Write

Angela and Julie Scipioni, co-authors, Iris & Lily

Today’s post is part of a blog hop that I was invited to participate in by my colleague and friend, Robin Rushnell Taney, founder of Studio4PR.The objective is to write a post about why I write. I invited Angela Scipioni - my sister and co-author of Iris & Lily to share this post with me.



Here's what I have to say about why I write:

The first profound thing I ever remember writing was an entry in my diary when I was 13 years old. In that entry, I expounded at length upon the feelings I had for a young man who soon afterwards became my first boyfriend, in a romance that blossomed during the summer between eighth grade and high school. The diary itself was covered in faux leather - as much an imitation, or a maybe a shadow, of the real thing as the relationship was. The lock on the diary didn't work, as I remember. Either that, or I never bothered to lock it, having had an underdeveloped sense of privacy growing up. It's odd now that I think of it since my thoughts were one of the few things I could have kept for myself in my very large, very intrusive family. I wonder if I knew they couldn't see my mind without my permission.

At some point along the way, I went back to that entry of deeply detailed 13-year-old love/angst and scribbled over it in pen until I could no longer read what it said. I distinctly remember having gone back to read it and being repulsed by my own words, or maybe by the feelings they resurrected.

I suppose when I first made that entry, it was to express myself. And when I scratched it out, it was because my feelings had changed. Both were a diary entry in their own way - one a stake in the ground and the other a stake pulled up when it was time to move on.

My writing life - and my life-at-large - has since been marked by thoughts fervently expressed, left out unlocked, and then often obscured by a change in heart or mind, lost in the scribble of personal growth, or, God willing, wisdom.

So I guess I would say that I write to find out what I'm thinking about and how I'm feeling, to openly share that with others, and then to look back upon what I have written in an effort to understand how I, my thoughts, my feelings, or my life have changed.

I figure as long as there is always something I wish I could go back and scribble out, I am going in the right direction.

And here's what Angela had to say about why she writes:

Writing has been an integral part of my life, all of my life, but I’ve never given much thought to the question: Why do I write? I simply grew into it naturally, like I did as a child when I learned how to talk, or sing, or dance, or make music. Just as I cannot imagine remaining still and quiet my whole life, I cannot imagine a life without writing.  It’s an instrument I use to elaborate the thoughts and emotions and ideas bubbling up inside me, another channel through which to convey them beyond the limits of my being, where they wash over one another, ebbing and flowing with the pull of my mind’s tide. My writing is not driven by a compulsion to establish myself in terms of how great an audience I can attract, rather it is something I cannot help myself from doing. Just as I often dance alone, and sing alone for the pure joy of expression, I write alone.  All writers write alone. Except when they don’t.

I never would have guessed that my dream of one day writing a novel would be so spontaneously and irreversibly transformed into the reality of working nonstop for four years with another writer. But strange things can happen when you share a dream with a sister. A sister who also can’t imagine a life without writing, and singing, and dancing, and making music.  I venture to say that writing a novel together has been our greatest gift to one another. Through our passion for writing, we have turned a shared dream into reality: a 1400-page reality called Iris & Lily.  I feel blessed and amazed that we have been able to produce this novel together. I am awed by the power of writing. I have been profoundly changed by this process. While searching for my voice as a novelist, I have rediscovered a uniquely talented woman and friend. Our blood ties have been enriched and strengthened by a new sisterhood, a sisterhood which I extend to all our readers and fellow writers.

Write on, sister!


Angela and Julie Scipioni are co-authors of the novel Iris & Lily. Visit IrisandLilytheNovel.com to learn more. 

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And now, here are the next two people in the blog hop:

Wendy Shinyo Haylett is a freelance resume writer and career consultant, helping professionals and executives define, refine, and market their professional brand. She is also a Buddhist teacher and Minister, affiliated with The Bright Dawn Center of Oneness Buddhism. Her book, Living As Yourself: Being Not Becoming will be published later this year or early 2015. Visit Wendy on LinkedIn.

Robin L. Flanigan is a freelance journalist for magazines, newspapers, books and websites. She is working on a creative nonfiction book about love, loss and second chances, and lives in Rochester, NY, with her husband and daughter. Her website is www.thekineticpen.com and she blogs at www.thekineticpen.wordpress.com.

Holding Open the Door to Love

Sunday is a day when we are reminded of the possibility of redemption, and I would like to take this opportunity to seek some of that for myself.

Yesterday on Facebook, I posted a link to a blog article that examined some interpretation, translation, and cultural contextual implications of the Bible with respect to the topic of homosexuality. But then I took the post down because I felt that the post comments were being used to spread the idea that God is not all loving, and that people are fit to judge one another. I felt attacked, and I got angry so I took my toys and I went home.

I realize now that by taking the link down, I reduced the force of God's Love in this world by one voice.

I'm not saying that I have extensively researched all of the information in this very thoughtful and informative article. But I do believe that any theology that includes all and loves all must be the theology of Jesus.

Jesus calls us to love all and judge none. That includes gay people, by the way. If it didn't - if Jesus meant to create an exception - He would have been very clear and specific about that. 

I think it would serve all of us well to read this entire article and prayerfully consider what it says. I'm not here to debate it; I'm only holding open the door of love and non-judgement. You can step through it, or not. But you can't close the door on me. So here it is again.

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/thegodarticle/2011/10/clobbering-biblical-gay-bashing/

Just read it. What are you so afraid of?

Peace,

Julie
www.JulieScipioni.com

Church is not for you

I’ve been on a journey to find Jesus my entire life. My travels have taken me to many strange and

wonderful buildings. I looked for Him in the Church of the Big Holy, but I slipped trying to climb the hierarchy. Once I got inside there was too much echo, too much empty space. And I always needed a sweater. 

Next I went to the Screaming Church of the Yelling down the road. But again, I stumbled - this time over my sin, which was blocking the door, first preventing me from going in, and then preventing me from leaving again. At the Small Sad Church, I stubbed my toe when I burst into a verse of Amazing Grace before I knew they didn’t use music in service. (They said to do what the Spirit moved me to do and the Spirit said, “Sing!” You’d think the Spirit would know the rules, after all.) 

I wandered to the fringes, exploring religions and philosophies that called God “Universe,” that measured my faith by the size of my accomplishments or the number of illnesses I experienced. I took a course in miracles, explored the science of my mind, and had someone tell me a secret. Eventually I traveled to other lands, learning about many exotic isms. I studied Yoga. Then I circled back around to the Church of the Big Holy thinking I must have missed something but someone tripped me and said that I should try the Church of the Not-Quite-As-Holy. But that was like exchanging vanilla bean ice cream for vanilla and I didn’t see the point. By then I had fallen so many times I was bruised and broken. Limping. 

Being at those churches didn't feel much different than being at home, but instead of people I knew, the place was filled with strangers. And it’s really uncomfortable to have strangers walking around in your house. Like going into the kitchen and finding some random guy rifling through the fridge, wanting to know if you have any brown mustard.

That’s probably the way Jesus felt when I wandered in for Sunday service - like some random woman looting the fridge, trying to satisfy her appetite for belonging, trying to learn which peg needed to go in what hole to make my life fall into place. The mental list of what, exactly, I was looking for in a church included: doctrine I could live with; a community of people I felt comfortable around; songs I knew; and a constitution that fit my personal worldview and sense of morality. I wanted to get what I needed - the information to solve the problems in my life I thought could be solved, the comfort to endure the ones I did not, the Heaven points redeemable to escape suffering in the afterlife, and someplace to go on Christmas and Easter. 

I told myself I was looking for Jesus, but as it turns out, I was looking for myself, for the Church of Me. 

In a moment of extravagant grace, I realized that it was Me that had gotten me into all the messes in my life. It was Me who had made the bad choices that led to seemingly unsolvable problems, it was Me who feared suffering in the afterlife, it was Me who thought that church was a building to go to on Christmas and Easter. 

Church, as it turns out, is not for me. 

So I began again. And this time I had one criteria. The one that Jesus Himself provided: Love. When I put my focus on loving others, it suddenly didn’t matter if I could accept every single teaching; it was enough to accept that I didn’t have to know or understand everything. Love filled in the gaps and solved the mystery. It no longer mattered if the other people in church were like me - in fact, I began to see that the more different they were, the greater my opportunity to practice love. And it didn’t matter if I didn’t know any of the songs. I started to sing new ones, discovering fresh ways to express my sorrow, my joy, my hope, my love. 

I don’t know what your spiritual journey has been like, or if you even know you are on one, but if you’ve ever tried to find the peace and love of God by visiting a church only to trip and fall, you know what it’s like. Maybe they didn’t welcome you, or they welcomed you too profusely (nobody’s THAT nice... must be something wrong there...). Maybe you felt out of place because you didn’t understand the customs, or you didn’t know the songs, or you said “trespasses” when everyone else said “debts” and now you’re too embarrassed to go back. Maybe the congregation was too old, too young, too weird. Maybe none of them were white; many too many of them were.

Consider that you are looking for the wrong things, in the wrong place. The church doesn't contain Jesus; Jesus contains the church. Stop searching, stop hopping around. You are the church. We are the church. And we step into the vestibule whenever we practice love with the people who are all around us every day. We do that by making allowances for one anothers' faults, having compassion for one anothers' sorrows, and lending a hand to ease each others' burdens. When we do that, we become Jesus followers. And when you follow Jesus, you will discover other Jesus followers, and you will probably want to hang out with them, sometimes even on Sunday morning. And it will be just right. 

Let Love lead you home.

Peace,
Julie

Julie is the co-author of the triple-decker novel "Iris & Lily."

Your personal Christmas

"The Christmas tree looks so pretty all lit up in the pre-dawn darkness. I have decided to name her Eileen because she does. Eileen the Christmas tree. I don’t get very sentimental at the holidays. What Christmas means and how I celebrate it is more about how I live my life than it is about the twenty-fifth of December. Ask most people what Christmas means and they will talk about joy, peace, and brotherly love. Blah, blah, blah. That’s not what Christmas is about. Whether you believe that Jesus is the Son of God, or a son of God, or a great prophet/teacher, or just a guy, or even if you believe that He is a literary character, His story is not about peace and joy. It’s about causing trouble.

Jesus himself said that He came to divide. He was a big trouble maker. A trouble maker with a secret. This experience of healing from abuse has taught me more about Him and what He came to say than any bible study or preacher ever could. 'Pick up your cross and follow me.' Do it, don’t just watch. It is not about martyrdom. It’s about sacrificing. I know, you think you’ve already sacrificed enough. But you haven’t. You’re doing it wrong.

Sacrifice is not about living in a situation that causes you suffering. Sacrifice is not about accepting that you’ll never be happy in this world. If you’re not happy, how can you serve anyone, how can you fulfill your purpose? You do have one, you know. We all have one. The day you accept that and believe it - that will be your own personal Christmas. It will be the day of your birth, and an angel will sound a trumpet, and a shepherd will bow his head, and a star will brightly burn.

You can come from the most miserable of circumstance. You can begin with not a penny in your purse nor a friend in this world. That’s how Jesus came. If you do accept your Christmas, then no matter your religion, your culture, your beliefs, you will be a Christian on some sort of level. Forget about what that means to you right now. It’s all fabricated by someone other than Jesus. 'Christian' isn’t even His word. It’s something that other people made up. They started the day He died, and they haven’t stopped. Making stuff up.

You have a ministry. It’s not to buy gifts or decorate trees, or bake cookies. It’s to begin your own journey of love, and then pick up that cross. It’s about doing, not watching. Hurting people who love you if you have to. Shaking up the world. Causing lots and lots of trouble. For a higher cause.

If you and your situation are anything like me and mine, you have been at this martyr thing for a long time. You have tried, over and again. Maybe you’ve been in counseling, or bent the ears of everyone and anyone who would listen until you are too embarrassed to bring it up anymore. You’ve waited. And waited. You’ve prayed. If God is a loving God, you may ask, then why won’t He get me out of this? Why does He want me to continue to live in misery? He doesn’t. God didn’t get you into the mess you’re in. You did. You can find the way to get yourself out. You need a miracle, my friend.

I believe, with all my heart, that this is the message Jesus brought: It’s not how you perform that matters; it's the state of your heart.  

Jesus knew that washing your hands doesn’t make you clean. Saying you have love doesn’t make you loving. He put His life on the line to teach these lessons. He made his mother cry. People like Judas didn’t understand. The Roman soldiers threw dice for Jesus’ clothes. They were all so busy being a mother and a friend and an employee that they didn’t see the big picture. They were all caught in their acts, and they got caught in the act. Of perception.

Jesus could have had a wonderful life. He knew a trade, He had friends, people were drawn to Him wherever He went. He would have wanted for nothing. But He got more by giving it all up. He let go. He surrendered. And then what happened? Well, we’ll talk about that at Easter."

This post is adapted from the book, Taking the Stairs: My Journal of Healing and Self-Discovery. bit.ly/TakingtheStairs.
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Work the crowd

I’m hiding behind my red stapler. It sits on my cool little Pier 1 desk, next to my Tiffany lamp, which stands watch over my Mac computer. I have my stuff, in my little office, in my cozy home, in my safe neighborhood in the richest country in the world. 

Yet my heart breaks almost every day. At least on the days when I - usually accidentally through a Facebook post, a Tweet, or by overhearing other people talking -  become aware of the latest human atrocity. People “over there” in the Middle East getting beheaded. A little boy “down there somewhere” in Pennsylvania tortured and killed by his parents, victims of Ebola “waaaaay over there” in Africa dying in the streets as they wait in line to get into the hospital for treatment. 

Some of the tragedies are closer, too. Too close for my comfort. A friend who’s been battling cancer for 30 years gets the news that this time there is nothing they can do for her, my mother who feels trapped in a body that won't obey her and is held hostage by a mind that she can't trust. And some suffering is uniquely mine, abiding with me as I live my life, the ramifications of my bad decisions and wrong choices.

I get so frustrated because I want to contribute to making the world a gentler place for myself and others, but I am paralyzed by my impotence. Nothing I can do with the resources I have is going to affect any of it. What would I do? Go to Africa and administer medicine? Restore my mother's memory? Go back in my time machine and do things over again? Heal my friend? Make ISIS stop? 

So I retreat into my little space, tucked safely away in my office with my red Swingline stapler (Yes, just like the one from Office Space) and my ceramic coffee mug and I pull my small life closer around me, as though it might shield me, or absorb the cries of the broken hearts, the broken bodies, the broken spirits that share this broken world with me. 

Do you ever feel the broken-heartedness of the world? If you're anything like me, you turn the TV off because you can’t stand to hear one more report of a bombing or a shooting, or you flip the newspaper immediately to the LifeStyle section because you just can’t read another headline about world affairs. Are you ever afraid to get on Facebook because you know there will be yet another story about a child dying from cancer or another celebrity succumbing to drug addiction or depression? Or maybe you are one of those people who grieves for lost souls and every post, news story, and viral video reminds you of how spiritually bankrupt we are. And you ache.

Hate, indifference, and suffering in the world overwhelm me, make me feel helpless and defeated by how short my reach is. 

But maybe having a short reach is just what God intended.

The other day I met a woman who was driving a blue Infinity. “Met” is not really the right word, I suppose. I saw her, on the road, on my way home from the gym. I was traveling down a busy four-lane road in the passing lane behind two school buses that were definitely not passing anyone... and they obviously stood between the woman in the blue Infinity and her destination. 

The Infinity buzzed up next to me in the right hand lane and, finding her way impeded by a slower moving car there, the driver zipped over in front of me, squeezing herself into the space between me and a school bus. 

“Are you crazy?” I called out. (To myself.) Then I found myself entertaining ideas about how to block her attempts at weaving and passing, since she was putting all of us danger with her reckless driving. (That’s always a good idea - find someone who is rushing on the road and then intentionally frustrate them.) “You’re going to get someone killed!”

I didn't see it initially, but the woman driving that car was suffering. It wasn’t third-world-political-strife-oppression-disease kind of suffering, but clearly she was worried about being late for something. Maybe her child was sick and she had to wait for a babysitter because her daycare center has a policy about children with fevers, and maybe that made her late for work and she had a big presentation to give at an early meeting. Or maybe her elderly mother lives alone and she called to say she had fallen and she was rushing to be at her side. Perhaps it was nothing more than a frenzied shopping trip to get started on “holiday gift giving.” (If you think that’s not a form of suffering, check out the mall the day after Thanksgiving.)

Whatever the reason was, I almost came bumper-to-bumper with another person who was not at peace and the best I could do was insult her and practically wish disaster for her. 

What happened to all that compassion? Where was my bleeding heart now? Was I only willing to recognize the pain of faraway people in far-off lands? Was I only interested in wishing I could do something about things over which I have no control and therefore no real obligation? Was I only willing to care about people who, by sheer virtue of distance and futility, required no more of an investment from me than the energy it takes to shake my head, tsk-tsk in pity, and lament my helplessness? 

When Jesus said, “Love one another as I have loved you,” what was he modeling? For starters, he displayed love to those whose paths he crossed, the people who literally brushed up against him. He was always working the crowds. He offered them grace and forgiveness wherever and whenever he encountered them. Jesus didn't go looking for opportunities to love; he didn’t have to. He knew that he was surrounded by them. 

I slowed down, backed off, and let the woman in the Infinity have her space (and don’t think the brand name of her car escaped me.). As she sped away, I offered up a prayer for her. I asked God to protect her and keep her and the other people on the road safe. I asked him to heal whatever it was in her life that was causing her such anxiety, and whatever it was in me that was making me blind to the fact that she was one of my "one anothers." Then I turned left down my street and headed for home. 

The truth is that we can’t do anything about ISIS or Ebola or the political wars that rage all around us. We can’t do anything about the flooding in Italy or the vicious snow storm in Buffalo. We can't save our friends from cancer or divorce and we can't protect our parents from death or push the rewind button on our lives. But every minute of every day that we are out in the world, we are brushing up against the crowds, just as Jesus did. We can offer love, forgiveness, and healing - right here, right now. No matter where we are, we can reach out and do something for somebody. Here are a few ideas to get you started:

• Smile at a co-worker. Extra points if you don’t like him.
• Set up the new pot of coffee in the break room. Even if you do it every time. 
• Be patient with that woman in the next cube who rubs you the wrong way. Bring her a muffin.
• Don’t let a call from that irritating client go to voice mail.
• Don’t take the last one today. Leave it for someone else.
• See that guy stuck in the next lane with his blinker on? Let him get in front of you. 
• See that lady in line at the grocery store with a crying child? Let her get in front of you. 
• How about that friend who is feeling alone and alienated from someone she loves? Get behind her. Take her to coffee.
• Hold a door open.
• Unload the dishwasher.
• Unload a grudge.
• Say “Thank you,” and “Have a nice day.”

Instead of barricading ourselves behind our stuff, hiding in our comfortable lives, and telling ourselves that we would surely make the world a better place if only we had more money or power or faith, let's try taking a step out into the crowd, reaching out our hand, and loving whoever happens to be at our fingertips. 

Can you imagine if everyone worked the crowd? I'll bet you my red Swingline stapler it would change the world. 

Chaotic perfection

Yesterday, I had the privilege of leading a yoga session as part of a recovery support group with which I'm involved. I was excited all week about the opportunity to do something to help heal members of a community who are so greatly in need of a little tender loving care. They are people I know and have come to care about. They are my friends.

Throughout the week, I found myself daydreaming about what that experience might be like - I imagined some of the proper "yoga" things I could say, and I was looking forward to giving them the kind of yoga experience I knew they needed.

What I imagined it would be like:

I would set up the room to accommodate the people who said they would come. I took great care choosing the right music - songs with the messages I knew would mean so much to them. They were about breathing and being still, about learning to focus on the fundamentals of taking breath in and then letting it go again, about participating in the process of life rather than trying to drive it all the time - an effort that only leads to stress, frustration, and exhaustion. We know this all too well.

As we moved through the practice, I would be able to wander about the room, adjusting poses, placing my hands on people I knew, giving them a touch of the love and attention that they craved. Perhaps when we got to hip openers one or two of them would break down and cry, the way I often have when settling into a deep hip posture, releasing the bounty of pain stored there over the years. But then when we finally made it through a gentle, basic, practice, I would have reserved 15 minutes for a nice long final resting pose. The music would softly waft in the distance, they would surrender themselves to the stillness and maybe a couple of them would even fall blissfully asleep. I would gently awaken them when the time was up, and then send them on their way, they glowing and peaceful. One by one, they would gather their things and calmly walk out the door, some of them accepting a warm hug and an invitation to return next week.

Here's what really happened:

Of the 10 or 12 people who said they wanted to join yoga, six came dressed in proper loose fitting clothes, and the others either forgot or didn't have time to stay. One person brought a mat. The lively discussion group that we had just finished was so full of its own energy that small groups of people were scattered around the room having spin-off discussions. Then the support group in the next room began and waves of conversation and laughter started to spill over the flimsy air wall. I managed to push the many tables and chairs away from the center of the room in order to accommodate the six mats we were able to scrounge up.

The willing students were ready, so I began. After 10 minutes, two of them got up and left to meet another appointment. Fifteen minutes into class, someone who had been in one of the spin-off conversations joined us, and about 20 minutes in, two people became overheated and dizzy and took a chair to rest and drink water. After 30 minutes, another left to take care of a family issue. By this point, I had turned the music off as it was just adding to the confusion. More people were sitting off to the side than were on the floor, and everyone seemed to be watching the clock.

No one heard any of the songs. I delivered very few messages that weren't directly about where to place a hand or foot. There were no hip openers. We never even got to do a final resting pose, but rather finished the practice by sitting cross-legged on our mats, talking about the challenges and the importance of carving out small blocks of time for self care, for quiet, of having even 10 or 15 precious minutes when our thoughts and language are not consumed by the chaos and sorrow and stress of loving someone who is struggling with addiction.

As I packed up my car and drove home, I felt that I had failed my little motley yoga crew. I had wanted to give them an experience I was sure they needed and that would help them along their path to peace and recovery. But then I realized that rather than lead them through yoga, I must allow this very special group of people to lead me, to teach me how to help them. Their class might seem disjointed and fragmented. It will start late and end early because these gentle souls are living lives of chaos and they don't need one more thing to rush around for. They will make plans to come and then not show up, because for many of them a family crisis will thwart their wishes for the day. They will practice in their jeans, because they are so busy taking care of everyone else that on any given morning, they are likely to forget to bring a pair of sweatpants to change into - if they manage to make support group at all. The chairs along the wall might be more occupied than the mats, because people who love addicts often invest all of their energy in the mitigating of disasters, saving nothing for themselves. Dealing with addiction makes us fragile creatures.

The yoga I offer to my friends in support group might not fall into any type of recognizable discipline, and there may be no semblance at all to a structured class with outcomes that I can notice. Like poetry without rhythm or rhyme, this yoga cannot be shoved into a formula.

In the end, it was never up to me to decide what my friends needed. It was up to them. And what they needed was no expectations, no stringent time table, lots of patience, the ability to start and stop and start again. They needed to know that the opportunity to experience yoga was available to them, but they also needed to have complete freedom to define for themselves what that might look like. To come or not, exactly as they are, with whatever time they can afford, with whatever ability they have, to the degree that they feel led.

The yoga that I offer these precious ones must be like the recovery process itself: unregulated, open, and free, allowing each to come and go, join and leave, forge ahead and fall behind at their own perfect pace.

Even though the yoga class I led was nothing like what I expected, it was everything I could have hoped for because - also like recovery - in any moment, on any given day it will always be perfect.

Peace,
Julie